G-word, Day 2

I'm not feeling so grateful, but I am keeping this up because, well, I don't know why exactly. I owe it to myself to try this little exercise. So here's my 3 things for today:

 

1. Death--I'm grateful for death because without it life would be an interminably long, boring affair. I noticed in the garden that life wants to live, but it can't keep growing and expanding indefinitely. There wouldn't be enough room. 

The little garden area is getting overrun by passion flower vines. They haven't got the memo on this whole death thing yet. Sunflowers grew up nice and tall but eventually fell over, top-heavy under their own weight. They begin to die and have no problem with drying up and becoming bird food. I should be so graceful.

 

 2. My eye condition from yesterday didn't get worse. I have these thoughts that "this is it, the start of the symptom that doesn't go away" each time I get some kind of issue. 

This time it was blurry vision in my left eye. It was due to a secretion of that yellowish white goo that sometimes forms in the corner of your eye. I had to blink frequently or put a warm washcloth over my eyes and it would go a way temporarily, but it kept coming back. 

I thought it could be the start of a new round of problems, my next big thing, but when I woke up this morning, it wasn't really an issue. 

I am glad for that. I can only battle so many different types of health issues. I take for granted the things that are ok until they aren't. So, I'm not taking it for granted, ok? Let my eyes be, please and thank you.

 3. Electricity. Yeah, it almost seemed like I was going to lose power today. A bit of a flicker when I was cooking dinner. That would have been terribly inconvenient as I had dinner on the stove and it would have been ruined by being half cooked. It only flickered for a second, but just enough to make me say, "Oh, please. Not now. Just let me finish cooking dinner. I'll be appreciative." 

I saw that movie "Into the Wild" yesterday. The guy struck me as somewhat of an idiot. Abandoning all the conveniences of modern living, and for what? Some romantic notion of "freedom" like a 12-year-old has when they run away from home. 

I've been without electricity before, and it doesn't feel like freedom, it feels like a drag. You have to do everything the hard way, come up with workarounds for everything that you do easily when you have power. So, yeah, thanks for the power grid not going down. 

 

I can still be grumpy as I'm grateful. That wasn't part of the deal, giving up my attitude. I'm just making notes. These things could have sucked worse, or they went "eh, ok."