The key to all spiritual awakening (from what I have gathered) is to stop resisting what is. Life and all its experiences are supposed to ultimately bring you back to God. The high road or the low road, the bumps the bruises...
I don't know how to say it. God is hiding, but He is everywhere. Too many people talk about God as if they understand everything and fit it neatly into doctrines and beliefs. I don't think it is possible to talk about God without making serious errors and distortions. The most enlightened people probably say the least and quietly just "are."
I am just a noobie so I am just running over at the mouth because the ideas are something I am grappling with. I have had fleeting glimpses and strong emotional responses at times, and so I feel there is a reality to my faith. But my little self is having a hard time getting out of the way all the time.
Seeing the big picture can be hard when you are covered in mud and it gets in your eyes and smears your glasses. I know meditation is important, but I can't seem to stop my mind for more than a few seconds. I have to surrender to the moment, just surrender.
Right now, the moment is not talking or blogging (more ego) but to cut some diapers, email my mother and try to sneak back into bed with my sleeping, but still possibly angry wife. Good.
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