Well, that was about the worst case reaction

 

I guess that's what happens when you dream about someone and then blog about it and then tell them about it. So, I guess that is a hard lesson I've learned about how people respond to me being "transparent." 

People would like to think of themselves as open, but if you get a little too personal, then boom--creeped the fuck out. Hey, I guess I should keep my dreams to myself? Well, I may offend more people in the future, but I'm gonna say---uh, no.

For one thing, no one ever reads this blog. I mean, they could, but they don't. My counter says that possibly two to three people, tops, ever do. And what difference does it make if a guy tells his story, dreams, thoughts and such to the empty ether? 

I'm sorry, _______. I thought you were more open-minded. Maybe I did cross a line for you. I'm sorry you decided to de-friend me over it. That is going to be my loss, but yours, too. I am kind of glad you made the harsh decision, though. I was spending too much of my already diminishing life's energy obsessing over someone else's life.

But I feel badly because now I'm going to be anathema and ill-thought of by you. And you can think or say whatever you want about me without the possibility of my responding. I guess I should have expected this, but it's still not a good feeling being repulsive. 

I guess we're a long way from the singularity, if everyone is going to camp out in their own separate consciousnesses and keep the walls of individuality in place. I'm still gonna go on hammering at the walls by being myself, whether or not I am perceived as creepy, offensive or impertinent. 

I apologize for the way I made you feel, though. I'm not everyone's cup of tea, I suppose.

I'm scrubbing your name from the blog. Not because I fear litigation or am embarrassed myself, but because you indicated you didn't want to be "used" in such a way. I will respect that. It may take a bit for me to track down each and every instance, but I'll get you wiped out of here, as I'm sure you are doing with me on Facebook. 

Sad, really. I guess it's in my nature to creep people out. I didn't want to do that with you, but I suppose, if I am real and open, it is bound to happen. Goodbye, my seasonal friend.