Catch a Wave

 

Sounds surfing themed, I know. 

I got no feelings

Might as well become a telemarketer

   Imitating an unimpressive AI

Robocall after robocall until someone caves

Something, sometime will make it through

      It's a numbers game

              Even the random spin will be lucky someday

                     I'm just sitting, eh, standing here 

          Ax in and, or, uhh, slung on shoulder, low--

But not really that low, cuzz, you see

      I can't see that far down, so..

          I'm uptight, isn't that what they say?

Lugubrious," I respond, "it's my word of the day."

I must have some pent up rage

  Isn't that what they'd say?

     I play the pentatonic 

       Like someone attacking you with a blade

                "I'll cut you, I will, motherfucker" is lurking

      Under the smile as I carve up the leftover turkey

"Life's all gravy," they accuse me

      I accuse

  Um, I mean, recuse myself

I'm not a bit angry today

I sit, rather stand, kind of a motionless pacing

    Thoughts -- I don't have thoughts --

   They have me

      Have their way with me most of the day

               If I sit and reminisce or if I go outside and play

                  There's a chorus I really gotta be getting to

                  Coming up in a minute

     Can't rush it though, it'll get here when it gets here

      Isn't that the whole point? 

  Be here now, be in the moment

Present and all that shit..hmn ah ha

I'm waiting, waithing rather, to catch a feeling

   The feeling is far off, I sense

But I will wait for it anyway

       Waith for it, like a wraith, only waiting, see?

          That shadow is me

   Waiting for the sun to catch me up to my real self

                  So, I'll wait for this feeling to come along

Like a bus or a train

   A Saturday was scheduled, that's what's on the books

     I might as well have one

Get swept up in the madness, the frenzy

   That seems to be what everyone is talking about

Focus on this

Ignore that

Gratitude, awareness

Being open, being a part of things

   Blah, blah, blah, going with the flow, kinda like

      I dunno, surfing? 

          Waiting for a wave

   Too chicken to catch one, should it actually arrive

  Telling myself, "No, not this one. It doesn't look right."

           What is life? 

              What's the game of it all? 

More fun with rules? 

     Better with some, at least, I think

Make 'em up as you go along

    Write your own song

      Sing it for you, let others in as you see fit or not

        Stop making notes to self and pick up your guitar