Who cares?
I suppose I should follow Sharon's advice and "lower my expectations." The problem is, once you've lowered them down to nothing, it still isn't enough. You have to go negative to cover all the possible crap that can come your way after you cease to expect good things. And when the negative shit you expect finally does happen to you, well, at least you won't be disappointed. I say this as it would have applied to her situation, which, in absence of good, never failed to be without the inevitable "it could be worse" coming to pass.
Gratitude? Fuck gratitude. The whole appreciate the good things line is shit. Appreciate them because they will be taken away? Because they are here today, gone tomorrow? Because they don't last forever? I suppose I should be "grateful" that this applies to me and my stupid fucked up existence. Just when, and how will it end? Please tell me. Or don't, so I won't be disappointed when another promise fails to deliver.
Thursday, November 1, 2018
Fuck it
Hi, I'm Andrew, AKA Hoodyup the Evil Caregiver, and I approved this blog post. I may not have been in my right mind at the time, but what's done is done. I stand by my sins. Eppur si muove.
I started this blog as a way to vent my frustrations with life, the universe and everything (not the book by Douglas Adams; that was quite good, actually).
My seemingly charmed life took a turn in 2004 when my wife Sharon was diagnosed with MS. This blog documents the fallout and revisits the past, as well as chronicling my dreams and rants throughout the years.
Be warned - explicit language and content that runs the gamut can be found in these posts, which describe personal events, both real and those dreamed up by my overactive nocturnal psyche.
Also, I use real names whenever possible, so if you see a post with your name on it, it probably refers to you. Unless, of course, you don't know me, in which case it is purely coincidental.
Enjoy your visit. Comment, if you so desire, or lurk privately. This blog can be your guilty pleasure (or displeasure).
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